Is this a permanent shift or just a passing phase? Why am I growing out of things—choreographies, friendships—I once loved? Or at least, things I pursued with such sincerity and discipline? Once you lose faith, it's incredibly hard to put up the "performance." At least for me, when it comes to friendships or situations, I’m quite clear—almost blunt—about stepping away when needed. Or I know it is a phase and I can always find my way back. I also don't force any relationship to stay (now); it takes its own course either to blossom or fade away. But with dance, it's different. Items that once won me accolades… choreographies I invested time, money, and heart into—I now struggle to reuse them. The excitement is missing. And yet, I can't simply discard them. I’m trying to re-choreograph, retry, reimagine. But it’s mentally exhausting. Is this confusion due to a lack of clarity? Or is it growth? Growth in awareness, in taste, in sensibility? When I ChatGPT-ed the...